Listening to Exhaustion
___ posted December 07, 2011 by Genalin Niere
In my exhaustion the other day, I sensed a deep longing in my heart for “home”. It felt like gentle and loving nudges in my heart, as if God was saying, “I miss you.” My heart ached as my deep longing for “home” found words – I missed God, too. As I continually accept God’s invitation to come rest with Him, I am once again experiencing a rhythm of rest that is permeating and refreshing my soul like fresh water in a dry and weary dessert. It is creating space in my soul for deeper connection with God and others. I am reminded that this rhythm of rest is a rhythm of grace. God has given us this gift of rest and I am keenly aware of how easily I reject this gift. I imagine this will especially be a challenge for many of us this time of year. I pray that we accept God’s invitation to rest with and in Him that we may truly experience the fullness of all that this season means.
Lately I have been having a hard time finding a rhythm of rest. There always seems more to do no matter how much I have done in a day. As a result, I have been exhausted! I found myself falling asleep on the train, while studying, reading…basically anytime my body was in a position with any semblance of rest. Most disturbing, I found myself “falling asleep” in my relationship with God. The demands of life dominated my schedule and it began to truly wear on my soul. My exhaustion was telling me more than just the state of my physical condition; it was an indication of my heart’s condition.